The Enemy Within

I fight myself on a daily basis
It's not that I hate myself, per se;
it’s that I still see all the faces
of all those who went before
who put me on “ignore”
or far, far worse

I am my own worst enemy at times
still listening to invisible demons
If you read between my lines
you’ll see I don’t always vote for freedom
It’s too easy to be overcome
to just succumb
to those dark, sweet whispers

So the battle rages on inside of me
mostly in waking, sometimes more in sleeping
I am unable to set myself free –
maybe temporarily –
until I once more end up weeping
no kind thoughts for safe keeping
just darkness and pain
again and again.

© 30/07/2015.

Release

I throw sand at the wind
watch it scatter, like my thoughts
the tide is coming in
to take them all away

Memories long gone
many worlds, never visited
time moves ever on
as the tide ebbs slowly in

Songs I’ve never sung
former friends, long forgotten
many things I should have done
time already moved on

Water laps at my feet
washing pain from my soul
I cannot admit defeat
but more I could have done

Reminders of me
in the sea, in the wind
they help set me free
I will not admit defeat

One last look at the ocean
I walk away, renewed
a new start set in motion
I am finally set free.

© 07/07/2015.